Did you hear your favorite song one last time.?

Sorry about the randomness here. But sometimes there is just music that you can picture being in a movie of your life. And I honestly feel like I found that. Which makes me grin like a kid on Christmas morning. It also makes me extremely happy.

Now, what do we want to talk about tonight? There's so much in my head. It's like swimming in a sea of confusion. Well I think it is. See, I cannot swim, so that analogy has about as many holes in it as the Titanic. So i guess only like two. But we're talking huge holes.

But seriously now, tonight I want to talk about people. I know what you might be thinking "wow this is going to be long and boring" but i promise it wont be long. I just want to talk about perceptions and idea's of people. It's been eating away at me for such a long time now. So my friends whom i have yet to meet that read this, get ready for bitching. Haha.

Wow. I just totally blanked on my opening argument... How embarrassing. Okay, so I had an Epiphany the other day. I realized we invest different things into different people. We might have a perception that someone care's about others problems so from that point on we turn to that person and if they remain there for you that is wonderful. Then when you suck everything up and put on your emotional mask ,so-to-speak, everyone else thinks things are fine, but then you have to realize if your going to be okay with everyone it is not fair to keep the mask off to your caring friend. Sometimes they want just a friend and when your okay with everyone else and not them how does that make them feel? People are so egotistical and self glorifying these days that they do what they want and act how they want and take advantage to those who love them.

Sometimes it shocks me. I mean I feel blessed because my core best friends I would do anything for and no matter what they can take whatever from me because they know its even all the way around and i will take what i need, but when we all get together we all make sure we all have fun. However, like any other person there are people in your life that will use and abuse you and not let you have the time of day if you ask. I guess it is what I get for being a caring individual. Then I turn to you all in internet land and bitch. haha. Well whatever. It's my way of dealing with it.

Well, I got more but I think I've made you all suffer too much already, so till next time I leave you with my qoute and a message for whomever can take a meaning from it.

"We all take different roads, these roads cross, run together, and grow apart as much as they come together. Yet, sometimes we need to go off of the roads to achieve true happiness."

"We need to not live to die, because there are so many dying to live."

I love you all as always.
I'm just like you, just trying to find some room to breath.